Yesterdays dialysis was yuck. The needling was very yuck! We have gone back to sharp needles for both buttonholes and I have pegs in both holes. It is tricky! Please pray that this week it improves and the little channels become established. I also felt yuck during dialysis and then had a yucky evening.

But thankfully this morning I am feeling MUCH better. I am looking forward to today - no dialysis, church and church lunch. And Chloe here- all good.

Kit is running today - a half marathon for cancer research. Well done Kit!

Busy day yesterday but lovely. Coffee with a friend catching up. Then the ladies and tough bible study. And Chloe back with a cold and nasty cough. She has been a poorly girl lately - medical school is hard. We had the most yummy slow cooker meal. I love my slow cooker. I am feeling so much better each week that goes by - it is hard to face the fact that I need to have more chemo and become poorly again.

Today dialysis with Chloe. Just hoping the needling is better.

Today I am thankful for

• Blue skies and white puffy clouds
• The love of my family
• A little black kitten licking me
• Texts from friends
• Bright yellow daffodils in a golden vase
• A warm comfortable bed
• Kind nurses
• My kindle taking me to other worlds
• The word of God
• A washing machine that washes!

I wonder what you are grateful for today?

Yesterday needling was yuck. I am looking forward to the day when I can write that it had gone well. The bottom needle wouldn't go into the vein and took a lot of pushing. The top needle wouldn't go in at all and had to be changed to a sharp needle and a peg has been put in again to hold it open. It feels a bit like 1 step forward 2 steps back. Ho hum! Once the needles are in it all goes well and they are beginning to say that my time might be reduced slightly which would be wonderful. (only by 15 minutes but that is better than nothing)

Today coffee with a friend, ladies who lunch and bible study, then Chloe home.

Thank you to those of you who have sponsored Josh we really appreciate it. He is training so hard and it spurs him on. I am so proud of him for doing it as after the attack he thought this sort of thing would never be possible. He continues to be in pain but works through it. He is a star.

Please keep praying for Mondays meeting with the oncologist - I need to have a plan!!!!

http://www.justgiving.com/joshwhite

This is Josh's fund raising page for the marathon he is running in April. Thank you to those of you who have sponsored him. He is training really hard. If you feel able to please sponsor him. Thank you

Good morning - it already feels like it is lunch time! I have been to physio waited for 20 minutes and then found out physio wasn't there.Came home and tidied 2 drawers in Ben's room, put in some washing and tidied the lounge. Need a rest now! I have decided to try and sort 1 cupboard or 2 drawers per day as we are living in such a muddle. I am easily overwhelmed by it.

Yesterday didn't go to plan - I woke up feeling sick and it continued most of the day. Not sure what that was about. It wasn't the normal sickness. However feeling better today thankfully.

Today dialysis - not looking forward to needling.

Needling yesterday was yuck. Combination of different nurse, holes closing after 2 days of not being used and a clot in my vein. It was very painful and the nurse thought she would have to start a new buttonhole. All in all an unpleasant experience. Hopefully it will be better on Thursday. Sad news from the man who was having a transplant this week - it has been cancelled. So hard for him to come to terms with after months of preparation. There is still a slight chance it may still happen but .......

Today I have a friend for coffee and my Pic line flushed.

Almost exactly 16 years ago to the moment I was giving birth to my baby boy. He was my gift and I am so grateful for him. It feels like it was just a blink ago and yet another lifetime! Only 2 more years and my nest will be empty. I look forward to seeing what the future brings for him.

Yesterday was fine, washing machine arrived and it seems to wash without flooding the floor which is a bonus! I am slowly working through the huge pile of washing that we have.

Today - dialysis. I had a dream that a friend I hadn't seen for ages was doing the needling. She isn't a dialysis nurse and I kept telling them she wouldn't be able to do it, and she couldn't! Looking forward to needling being over - its not a pleasant thing. Hopefully it will improve this week.