Very good clinic appointment - still feeling completely amazed by all that has happened. I saw a different consultant today who said - oh hello we meet at last I have heard all about you! You have angels looking after you. She is delighted with my progress and feels that my kidneys are now stable. She again said that she couldn't say that I will never need dialysis again but that is their hope for me. She had a look at my arm and said that she felt that we should consider closing off my fistula. This would involve opening up my arm and tying off the artery where it joins the vein. Unfortunately it would mean that I could never use that arm for dialysis again and as my other arm wasn't suitable I would then have to use my leg. Thankfully I don't need to decide this now and will have the next 4 months to think about it! It will be a hard decision as we don't know whether I will ever have to have dialysis again and if I do have it for how long I will need it as fistulas don't ever last for ever. However it is wonderful to know that for now I am stable and don't need to go back for 4 months. This is all assuming that the blood tests I had today are fine. The results will be back this evening so they will phone me tomorrow if there is anything wrong. My stitches came out very nicely so now we wait to see how much the swelling goes down. If it could just go down enough that I can use a knife and fork properly and put my jumpers on that would be nice. I am covered in bruises from all the blood and cannulas over the last 3 days. Thankfully next weeks hospital appointments don't involve blood tests.

Tomorrow I am off to see Kit in Stroud. I am looking forward to spending the day with her and hoping the journeys are a bit better than Saturdays ones to Winchester.

Yesterday I was reading some poetry by Carol Ann Duffy and this line struck me so greatly

'What will you do now with the gift of your left life? '

This is what I have been given - the gift of a left life. I am making the most of it. I am treasuring it thankfully for each moment I have been given. Today's appointment again reminds me that it is a gift I have been given and I have a choice as to how I live it now. I love my life! What about you? Are you treasuring your days remembering to tell all those you love that you love them, holding your children close and choosing to make every day count. Don't waste this one life you have, take every opportunity to live it well. Take time to look for joy, do those things on your list - you don't know what tomorrow brings. Look for the Creator - He is there waiting to take your hand too.

Ok speech over!!!