Sunday 31 March 2013

Easter Making

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Happy Easter everyone! 

He Is Risen - He is Risen indeed! 

I am unable to change the position of these pictures so can't write near them! Ho Hum! These are pictures of our making weekend!
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Simnel Cake



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Lemon Pavlova-  thank you Mary Berry for recipe
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Ed made a neck thingy for skiing without a pattern.
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Chloe made a onesie - with a pattern

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Easter biscuits - Ben's butterfly and Eds crazy rabbit
 

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Flowers in a trolley
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Flowers arranged


Friday 29 March 2013

Thursday 28 March 2013

Nails driven

As surely as the dawn will come
it was for me he died
my hands drove in the nails
my selfishness, my pride.
And though my heart is black with sin
the morning light breaks through
and hope has been reborn
for mercy comes anew
as surely as the dawn


As Easter approaches I am reflecting on those nails driven into His hands for me. Because of my sin He went to the cross, because of my failures He died that I might have life. Wow! Mercy and grace wrapped in a parcel and given to me. How easy it is to lose sight of this in the business of life. Please take time to reflect over this weekend. His life given for yours - no greater love. 

Today beautiful flowers. I have missed doing flowers over lent and I am glad to be back doing them today. It is such a peaceful thing to do - in the beauty of the church often in total silence. Then a weekend with my girlie and her boy, a day celebrating my nieces birthday on Sunday and lots of lovely food. Tonight I am cooking a duck for the first time - hoping it goes well.  Happy Holidays to all my school friends.

Tuesday 26 March 2013

Where is Spring?

 I have decided to update my blog template in the hope that it will remind the weather that 
IT IS NOW SPRING!

This picture was taken of our garden on Saturday. I know that many people have much worse weather but - I am fed up with snow and cold. My fingers are so sore from being cold all the time. Enough already! Time for sunshine.
A cheerful Ed and a grumpy Chloe in the snow on Saturday!




Our plans for our weeks holiday at home have turned into a cleaning out week. We did a great job yesterday with the kitchen and threw out lots of stuff - sorting into - nobody would want, recycling and to give away. I have no idea how we managed to gain 10 ice blocks, 5 flasks, more bowls than we could ever use and 5 graters!
 These photos are to show that despite the weather the plants are trying to say - it's Spring. There are some beautiful colours in the garden - especially the Christmas/Lenten Roses.

I am now off to do more clearing out!



Monday 25 March 2013

Alice

 I wish I could describe how wonderful Alice as a ballet is. The scenery, props, costume, dancing, choreography, music etc... is truly breathtaking. The pictures here taken from the Internet just don't do it justice but do give you a flavour. If you get the chance to see it - do. I think it is going to be in the cinema - maybe Thursday? Not quite the same seeing it on a flat screen but still good I should think. The Opera house had lots of children on Saturday. A perfect first ballet as there is so much to see

 We had a lovely time with Chloe and Ed - thankfully Chloe was feeling much better. We celebrated Ed's birthday and Chloe getting into South Thames. We now wait to see where she will actually be - she has ordered 270 jobs and waits to see where they will put her. I think she will hear by the end of April.

After 2 very busy days I was exhausted yesterday and spent the day in bed! I am still quite tired now. This week is our holiday at home and as it is SO cold we are having a spring cleaning week in doors instead of the trips out we had planned. I think we should have ordered a skip! 

 Paul and I are both hoarders so we need to be disciplined to sort and throw out. I am trying to keep the premise - only keep if it is useful or beautiful. But so many things might be useful!!!! I have written a three sided list of what I hope to achieve this week - there is no way I will manage it all but hopefully some of it will get done without me being too distracted along the way!

I think our aim is to have a home for everything (apart from Chloe's boxes of stuff) rather than the piles we live amongst!

I am being quite ambitious as I am still in bed typing this at 10.00 on Monday morning and Wednesday and Thursday are taken up with buying and arranging the Easter flowers at church - oh well better get on with it!




Saturday 23 March 2013

Purple lunch

 Our purple lunch for Kidney Research went very well. A lovely way to end the term with my ladies. Then a great dance show - wonderful to see so many girls taking part. Extra special to come home to Josh - watching football. Even though it was a short time it was great to catch up with all his news.

This morning - snow snow snow! And it is settling! Whatever has happened to Spring? 
Next week we are having a holiday at home. We had one last year in brilliant sunshine - wearing t-shirts at the beach. We won't be doing that this year!

Today we are off to Royal Opera House to see Alice in Wonderland as a ballet and hopefully have lunch with Chloe and Ed to celebrate her place in South Thames. I say hopefully because she has been proper poorly this week so we are hoping she will be well enough to come today.

I hope you all have lovely warm weekend plans which include fires and soft blankets!

Thursday 21 March 2013

Happiness/joy

 


I have been wondering recently about the difference between joy and happiness. We often talk about being happy when good things are happening but joy seems to be more abiding and can be present even in the worst of times. Happiness seems to be connected to an external event or ‘happening’ and is often shown by physical expressions, smiles, laughing, jumping up and down etc… But joy seems to be that deeper expression of inner feelings not connected to external circumstances. Joy seems to be linked to thankfulness. Interestingly it seems that joy and fear can’t go together – if we are fearful we will struggle to be joyful. By focusing on thankfulness we can choose joy – as we learn to look for the good things joy develops, whatever our circumstances. When we moan and groan and focus on what is not good we loose joy. So easy to say – so much harder to put into practise. 

My writing is coming on - slowly. It is hard to go back sometimes and remember what has happened, especially thinking about all that my family went through while I was just getting on with it. I wish I had been able to think more about their needs at the time. Illness makes you so selfish and me centred. 

Tomorrow I am having a purple lunch party to raise money for Kidney Research. How perfect that they want us to - go purple for kidney awareness month! (I love purple). Look out for the photos! Josh is coming to stay for the night before he goes to a stag party and I am going to a see a dance show which  one of my tutees is performing in. Busy day!


Monday 18 March 2013

As surely as the dawn



As surely as the dawn will come
as certain as the day
there's comfort for the weary
hope for all who stray.
The father holds his arms out wide
and bids the sinner come
find shelter in the storm
as certain as the day
as surely as the dawn.


As surely as the dawn will come
it was for me he died
my hands drove in the nails
my selfishness, my pride.
And though my heart is black with sin
the morning light breaks through
and hope has been reborn
for mercy comes anew
as surely as the dawn


As surely as the dawn will come
we'll rise to meet new life
redemption's price is paid
God's wrath is satisfied.
Now kindness is the air we breathe
forgiveness, grace will come
anew to us each morn
as certain as the day
as surely as the dawn.

© 2010 Simone Richardson & Philip Percival 

If you would like to  listen to this song it is here -  
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6faCsKTnXWA

I love the words of this song - 'shelter from the storm - as certain as the day, as surely as the dawn'. And that is what I have found. As I write my story I am again so aware of His hand guiding me through the storm, giving me joy and providing all that I needed.I am so grateful to be here able to write my story and able to be part of my families life. 

On Saturday we are going to London to see Alice in Wonderland as a ballet with Chloe and Ed to celebrate Chloe getting into South Thames. Just a few more weeks placement and  her exams to go and she will be Dr Chloe - wow! She is now placing nearly 300 jobs in order of preference and then after Easter she will know where she will be in August. It is such a long drawn out process. She has just finished her last weekend of revision courses in London - it will be nice for her to have her weekends back. It has been hard work to work all week and then be at study weekends. Although maybe it is preparing her for what is to come! 

Today I am getting bits and pieces done so that I can get on with writing this week. I am really glad it has stopped raining - we have had enough rain, snow, wind, cold, etc... time for some sunny days. Maybe next week? 

Ben has just arrived home having tried to get to school on the train. Apparently it is too icy for the trains?!!!!! They have just cancelled the next 4 trains! He has given up waiting - especially as he only had 2 lessons this morning!

Sunday 17 March 2013

Orange is the colour!

This is my photo - all ready to go to the Houses of Parliament. Thank you for all the comments I have had on facebook and thank you M&S! My hair although shaggy is all my own and all my own colour. I discovered a love of bright colours when I didn't have hair. Now it is a bit harder to get the right bright colours - when you have no hair it's easy to match it to any colour! In the background of the photo are my shelves of tea cups. Another of my new loves! 

This week has been a full on busy week and I have really enjoyed it. I did have a stop day on Thursday but I think I am still very tired after my adventure to London on Wednesday. Yesterday Paul and I met up with my aunt and uncle and 2 of my cousins and their families. It was a really lovely day especially meeting my cousins little daughter who we hadn't managed to meet before - she is now 3! Time flies so quickly! Families are important aren't they.

So today it's church and then resting - hopefully I will then start the new week with more energy. I am hoping this week to have a writing week. I am writing my story - slowly! But so many exciting things get in the way! So this week I am setting time aside to do it - we shall see if that works! Next week Paul is having a week off and we are hoping to go out and about a bit, depending on the weather. Last year we had the same week off and had t-shirt weather. Doesn't look like it will be like that this week!

Friday 15 March 2013

Kidney disease - do read


Today I am going to focus on general information about your kidneys – do read it because it may one day save your life or the life of someone you love.

Kidney Disease – facts and figures

v    50,000 people in the UK are being treated for kidney failure
v    90% of people on the transplant list are waiting for a kidney
v    7,000 are waiting for a transplant and every day 1 of them will die
v    Around 1 in 10 of us has chronic kidney disease
v    Kidney disease costs the NHS over £3.66 billion a year
v    Kidney disease affects over 10% of hospital admissions
v    3 million people in the UK are at risk of kidney disease
v    Kidney failure is a ‘silent disease’ with little or no symptoms
v    About 15% of patients admitted to hospital with an acute illness will have some reduction in kidney function


Your kidneys
v    Remove waste
v    Clean the blood
v    Ensure healthy bones
v    Control blood pressure
v    Makes a hormone which helps create red blood cells
And many other things as I have found out!

People at risk of kidney disease are not just those who have an inherited diseases but all those people with diabetes, high blood pressure, (particularly if these 2 are not controlled) overuse of some tablets (NSAIDs), long term infections, blockages such a kidney stones, and heart disease. 

Kidney disease can affect people in different ways but some of the symptoms are:
v    Feeling tried
v    Difficulty concentrating
v    Itchy skin
v    Breathless on exertion
v    Poor appetite and weight loss
v    Feeling sick
v    Swelling in the legs
v    Headaches
v    Protein in the urine
But may have no symptoms! 

It can be diagnosed with a simple blood test and a urine test and for most people (90%) will never lead to dialysis or transplant.

You can help yourself by having regular blood tests, take regular exercise, keep your weight down, don’t smoke, if you have high blood pressure or diabetes make sure it is well controlled.  Be kidney aware.

Information from Kidney Research UK, Kidney Alliance and BKPA British Kidney Patients Association

Thursday 14 March 2013

My adventure


For anyone who doesn’t do detail – this isn’t the post for you!

After all of my debating about what to wear to the Houses of Parliament I decided on a black dress, orange/red jacket, black shoes, and a scarf to tie it all together. However what I hadn’t taken into account was the weather! We left home in pale sunshine but it was very cold so I wore my new bright blue coat, which worked ok as the scarf tied the colours together. But my mistake was not thinking about – rain, sleet and snow – all of which we had.

We arrived at the Cromwell entrance to the Houses of Parliament in plenty of time with rain and sleet just beginning. I then queued for a short while for the first checkpoint getting wetter as time went on. Once into the first room you are security checked just like at an airport and then you have your photo taken and printed onto a small ID card and attached to the lanyard which had been placed around my neck at the first check point.

Moving on you then enter the cavernous Westminster Hall. It is a huge hall with the most amazing hammerbeam roof  - one of the only parts of the Palace of Westminster that was left after the Great Fire in 1834. It is used for many things – ceremonial addresses by heads of state or the Queen to both houses, for banquets and for lyings in state before funerals. Here I was again asked where I was going and directed to the Central Lobby through St Stephens Hall. The floor is tiled and the walls covered in panels and statues who welcome you into their world. You then enter the octagonal Central Lobby – the most beautiful lobby complete with a huge chandelier.  This is the crossover place where all corridors and houses meet. It is like an ants nest – little ants scurrying here and there, many walking very fast, most with a purpose but some (like me) feeling quite overwhelmed. It was so, so busy. I was again directed to another lobby area where I was asked to sit and wait until 5 minutes before the start of my event. There appeared to be quite a few other events taking place and quite a lot of waiting people. This time allowed me to have a good look around me. From my seat I could see the beautiful Central lobby covered in ‘ants’ either meeting or scurrying to wherever they were going and I could see the next lobby where people waited to be admitted to their event. Most people were dressed smartly ( it made me feel that I had got the dress code right), some visitors were wearing jeans etc… and there were lots and lots of suited men.

At 3.55 I was shown down a small staircase into a long corridor with many doors leading off. As we walked past the rooms you could see many small rooms with tables set for meetings and along the corridors tables set with glasses and finger buffet food.

We were the directed down another small set of stairs into a tiny lobby where we collected our name badges and then entered a marquee attached to the side of the Houses of Parliament. (When you look across the river to the Houses of Parliament you can see the marquee) It has the most wonderful view of the river and St Thomas hospital beyond.

On entering the Marquee I felt quite overwhelmed – knowing no one and not really understanding how it all worked. Thankfully a lovely lady quickly came to chat with me. She was from Fresenius the company that make the dialysis machines that I used. We had a good chat about kidney disease and machines etc… A good start!  I was then able to go and introduce myself to Fiona Loud (Kidney Alliance) who had invited me and we had a short chat. She was very distracted – understandably by all the guests arriving. I was aware of the pressure she must have been under to organise and host such an event, whilst also having to speak and taking the opportunity to lobby the MPs and Lords who attended about the issues they were targeting this year in relation to Acute Kidney Injury (AKI).

I was just beginning to think that it was getting a bit scary again when Leo Bailey arrived. She is the Matron for Kidney Disease at Royal Berks and is also part of the Kidney Alliance. It was wonderful to see her and she looked after me for the rest of the afternoon, which was lovely. She knew many of the guests and chatted freely to people, introducing me as she went around. It was her first visit to the Houses of Parliament so she was also fascinated by everything.

The talks began and the host – MP Glyn Davies introduced himself. He is the co-chair of the  All Party Parliamentary Kidney Group. He also introduced Anna Sourby MP who is the Parliamentary Under Secretary of State for Public Health. Both spoke for only a few minutes as there was a bell sounding which told them that they had 8 minutes to get to the chamber to vote. It was great to witness this and to feel that we were actually witnessing the action of the House of Commons! There were 2 Drs speaking – Dr Donal O’Donoghue (National Director of Kidney Care) and Richard Fluck (Chair of Kidney Alliance) both passionately speaking about how we can reduce the mortality rates of AKI and giving all the facts and figures. I will write about this at another time. Following this a patient spoke of his personal experience of AKI. It was very moving to hear his story. Fiona then spoke of what needs to be done and the importance of hospital staff and GPs understanding about AKI.

I realised how lucky I had been to have an oncologist who checked my kidney function as part of bloods taken after my transfusion and then to be seen so quickly by a renal consultant at 10.00 at night and a plan put in place. I am thankful for such good care.

The talks were followed by sandwiches, cakes, drinks ( all beautifully presented) and milling around. Thankfully I had Leo by my side, which made this part so much less scary. We chatted to quite a few people, telling my story and hearing about their involvement with the kidney world.  There were many passionate people wanting kidney disease to be more widely known about. There is much research in the pipelines but of course money as always remains an issue. It was interesting to see that Fiona didn’t stress the importance of more money but of the money that there is available being better used. She highlighted how expensive dialysis is and that anything which can prevent or postpone dialysis – saves money. It was very interesting. I was encouraged to have a voice within the renal world as so many patients with kidney disease are too poorly to be vocal about their needs. To this end I have been invited to be involved with the kidney patients group at Royal Berks – we shall see where this leads.

At one point during our milling I found myself standing next to Lawrence Keogh – a famous chef who has himself had a kidney transplant. I wish I had been braver and asked him about it. He is a campaigner for transplants and has written a diet book especially for kidney patients which is free to download. He seemed very friendly.

Once we had milled for a while and eaten some very yummy sandwiches and cakes it was time to leave. Looking out of the windows across the river we could see that it was snowing heavily, making a beautiful picture. I wish I had been able to take photos but this was not allowed. There was a photographer taking official photos, which will be used for publicity.

We then left back through the Central Lobby and Westminster Hall and out into the busy streets of Westminster. Thankfully it had stopped snowing by then. Paul was waiting for me by the gates, having been to The Tate while I was at the reception.

We finished our day with a meal and cocktails at Las Iguanas – a wonderful end to a magical experience.

Today is World Kidney Day – I wonder how much coverage it will get on the news? I think it will get lost in the new Pope and Comic Relief just as it gets lost in our big hospitals in dingy corridors and dark, hidden corners. Expect more to come on this!

I intend to go back over the summer and explore the history and see all the places that I didn’t get to see this time. It has over 1,000 rooms in total, 100 staircases and over 3 miles of corridors – wow! No wonder it feels like an ants nest. 

There is a photo to follow but it is on Paul's phone.

Wednesday 13 March 2013

Dress, nails, invitation - tick!



So today is the day - I am off to The Houses of Parliament. I am feeling excited and slightly anxious. It is such a wonderful opportunity but it also is such an  unknown world to me. I have my dress, my shoes, my scarf, my nails are painted and my hair washed, I have my notes and most importantly my invitation. I am looking forward to the talks and hearing the issues that are raised about acute kidney injury. I am also looking forward to meeting the people who I have read about in the world of kidney disease. I am thinking that it will all pass in a blur as these things tend to and will be over all too soon. I will dip my toes into this new world and then be back in my own comfy world! I will let you know all about it tomorrow.  

Monday 11 March 2013

The Invitation arrived

Hurrah! I have my invitation and it's all go. I am feeling very excited and scared all mixed up. It is actually called - The World Kidney Day special Parliamentary briefing Acute Kidney Injury - a predictable, avoidable, life-threatening emergency. It is being held in The Terrace Marquee in The House of Commons. As you can imagine the security information is interesting - particulalrly the bit - 'at any point a policeman or member of security staff may stop you and ask where you are going! You will most likely be challenged several times.' I am looking forward to hearing the talks. 

I also recieved a letter from my oncologist saying that all my bloods are fine (well fine for me) . So big sigh of relief. Now need to readjust my blood pressure tablets to see if we can sort out the sickness and tiredness. It is a never ending process! At Easter it will be 4 years since my hands and feet started swelling and my life changed. I am ever hopefully that sometime soon I will settle in my new normal! Lately I have been thinking more of the future and that I have a future. I still don't look to far into it but I am certainly thinking of the next few years and that is so good. I continue to be thankful for each and every day but it is really wonderful to think that I can plan for the next few years. Even now thinking about it makes me tearful that at one point I didn't think I would be here this year let alone another few years. At the renal clinic we talked about what happens to my kidneys if I reach my 70s and she didn't laugh and say that wasn't possible. Thankfully we don't know the future so I will continue to treasure each day and I hope you do the same. And I will allow myself a little planning too.

Sunday 10 March 2013

Ballet



 Sorry this post isn't formatting properly today. The pictures are from the mixed programme which Paul and I saw on Saturday at ROH. It was really wonderful. 2 new ballets and then Apollo with Carlos Acosta - wow! Today I am exhausted!

This week - tea with the older ladies and gentlemen, coffee with a friend, tutoring, reception in the House of Commons, bible study and coffee and cake with Josh and Debs to celebrate her birthday.
 











Friday 8 March 2013

Great news

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Great news - Chloe has got her place in South Thames - hurrah! We are all delighted and we are looking forward to seeing her future open up. Last night she did her first night shift with obs and gyne and saw a baby born. Soon she will really be Dr Chloe! 
Update on clothes for Wednedsay - I have decided to go for a black dress with little black heels and a red/orange cardigan. Hopefully that will be ok? However I am still waiting for the invitation so may not be going after all! Maybe they are checking me out first! 

Tomorrow - ballet in London.

Thursday 7 March 2013

No more renal!

Yesterday may have been my very last renal clinic appointment. That is amazing! I haven't had all my blood results yet - waiting for a phone call from oncologist but the ones I have had are fine. Well obviously they aren't fine - but are fine for me! They show stable kidneys at about 20%. My liver function is fine and the indicators for inflammation are fine (that would show up if I had active autoimmune disease). So now 2 more monthly blood tests and if they are ok I won't need to go back to the renal clinic. Her view is that unless anything else happens my kidneys should remain at this level and if I have any problems my other consultants or my GP will refer me back to her. She advised me to stay away from 'bugs' though as that could push them over the limit. But thankfully  no more injections in my tummy - yippee! If there are any Lance Armstrongs out there I have a fridge full of Epo!!!!!! 

I think this now means that I will have to try adjusting my blood pressure tablets to sort out the sickness and tiredness. Ho hum! It also means I have to do this with a new GP as my GP is having a baby (very inconvenient of her) I think I also have to accept that this is my new life and to get on with it and stopping moaning! I went to visit the patients and staff at the dialysis unit when I went to get my blood done. They are always so delighted to see me, it is lovely. It also is a good reminder of where I have come from and that for some people it is their lives with no chance of recovery. I am so thankful not to have to be doing dialysis and now no more renal.

Today coffee with a friend and some making.

Tuesday 5 March 2013

Hospital and a secret to tell.

Today a day of contrasts. Hospital and a secret to tell.

Today is the day I go to have many blood tests. Hopefully most will come back fine and the others will just show what we already know - I have been very poorly! I will know most of the results probably tomorrow after a telephone consultantion with the oncologist and an appointment with the renal consultant.

My secret is rather exciting! I have been invited to go to a World Kidney Day (Wkd) reception at The House of Commons next Wednesday. Wkd is on 14th March and is focussing on acute kidney injury. I will hear some talks focusing on the need to improve the care for patients with acute kidney injuries and then be available to talk to MPs etc over a drink! Wow! So exciting and so scary! The biggest question (as I am sure all you ladies have guessed) what do you wear? Expect to hear a lot about that over the next week!

In the meantime I am off to the hospital for more mundane things!

Monday 4 March 2013

What a busy weekend!

Ben's beautiful cake made by Laura of Crowthorne Cakes.
 What a busy weekend! 

On Friday we celebrated Ben's 18th birthday - in style with afternoon tea at our house. It was really lovely and amazing to think how quickly the last 18 years have gone. I am now the parent of 3 adult children - wow! How ever did that happen?

This beautiful cake was made by Laura of Crowthorne Cakes . She did such a excellent job . Not only was it beautiful but it was also very very yummy. I highly recommend her for all your cakey needs! 

I think afternoon tea is the way to go 
Afternoon tea at home
for parties of the future. 

On Saturday Paul had booked a wonderful day in London for the 2 of us. We went to see La Boheme at the Royal Opera House which was wonderful. I am still working on loving Opera but this was fantastic, although very sad. I can see why people  love it. I have included a couple of publicity shots in these photos.



La Boheme
A window of photos














Ben lighting 18 candles

 After the opera we went on to have afternnon tea in Park Lane. It was yummy - a perfect combination of lovely food in a pretty setting with beautiful harp music. I think I did disappoint the staff by asking for coffee rather than try their amazing list of teas!

We met up with Chloe at Waterloo after her revision day and travelled back catching up on her weeks news very overshadowed by the chaotic mess of her new job placement. She will now hear this Friday after they have remarked all 7,000 papers!

We are really hoping that she will stay in South Thames. 

At home we were met by Josh and Debs who had arrived during the afternoon. I loved going to bed with all my chicks and their partners in the nest!
Paul - wishing he could eat his sandwiches
 On Sunday we had a family party which was really lovely. I love seeing the cousins together - we were just missing Nell and Lila. It is becoming a very rare event when we manage to be altogether. We only managed it for breakfast one day at Christmas! We are becoming quite a crowd now that they have partners too! How much Mum and Dad would have loved to see them altogether. It is at celebrations that I miss them most!

Sorry the photos are a bit chaotic but once on the page they don't like moving!

This week is a hospital week.(after a recovery day today) I have a huge lot of blood tests tomorrow to check everything! Well almost! Then results of blood tests in a telephone consultation - hopefully and an appointment in the renal clinic. I have had 2 weeks wihtout eppo now - so we will see what the results show.

Yummy sandwiches - except the fish ones!
 The rest of the week is tutoring, mothers day flowers, coffee with friends and bible study. I have missed my ladies having had 2 weeks without bible study.

I am delighted to see the sunshine - time to plant seeds me thinks! Spring is on its way.
Me at tea

The beautiful harpist

cakes - need I say more!

Playing with Ben's new toy

Talia and Jordan
More Candles

Friday 1 March 2013

Happy Birthday Ben!


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So today my boy is 18 and as you can imagine (knowing me) I am very reflective. He has always been my gift. I wanted a third baby for a few years but it didn’t seem that it was to happen. I had a miscarriage and then didn’t conceive. Josh and Chloe both started to ask if we could have another baby and we suggested that they pray about it. A month later and I became pregnant. We have always felt that Ben belonged to all of us.
My waters broke outside school, which seemed the right place! He was then born at 9am the next morning. Chloe and Josh both talk about their excitement of Paul arriving at lunchtime at school to tell them that Ben had been born. I will never forget the excitement I felt bringing him home and Joy, Talia, Adam, Josh, Chloe, Mum and Dad all welcoming him home.

Life over the last few years has been very tough for him but he has continued to be my gift. He has listened to all my moans and groans and put up with never having his shirts ironed or of having underwear in his drawer! He has had to do things that no teenage boy should have to do or cope with conversations no child wants to hear about their mum.




I look forward to knowing what his future holds and seeing him grow into a man. I am so, so thankful to be here to celebrate with him  today. He is my joy and my delight and I am so glad he is MY son.

HAPPY HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MY BEN