I am struggling a bit to find joy in today. Ben's results yesterday were disappointing and we now have more questions than answers. We have a meeting with school next week to discuss the way forward. It is so horrible when your child is hurting and you can't make it better. I feel so guilty - if I hadn't been ill he would never be in this position. It is rubbish! 

So to help I am going to write a list of things to be joyful about 

• I am loved by the creator of the world who holds all things in his hands - he has a plan 
• Ben has nearly finished painting the back lounge just the dining area to go
• Quilt show tomorrow
• Paralympics starts in 12 days
• No news from hospital which suggests that my mammogram was ok 
• Flower arranging today 
• Chloe loving surgery 
• It's not raining 
• I am not doing dialysis! 
• I am no longer being sick in the mornings 
• Paul has a job 
• I have a new Olympic duck coming to live with me 
• It's warm so my fingers don't go white 
• Papageno and Alfie love me! (I know it's cupboard love )
• I have friends and family who love me 
• I went to the Olympics 
• Josh and Debs are happily settled in London 

What a random list but I do feel a bit better already. I will be even happier when we have a plan - I do so love a plan! 

I hope you all have great weekend plans.