Yesterday I spent the day in bed feeling very frustrated. I began the day by being very sick. Another reminder I think that I have been too busy! It does seem to be my default setting now if I don't rest after busy days I get sick. I think I will have to take this seriously and go back to planning rest days again because being sick is so horrible. You would think I would get used to it - but I don't. It is such a reminder that I am still unwell and probably will never be completely well again. I have to re-arrange my thinking and accept that although I am SO much better than I was my body is still poorly. Ho hum! 

After that moaning let me say I am feeling much better today. Thankful for a new day, even a rainy one. Today sorting with a friend and coffee with a smaller friend. And a rest in between!  

I had finished writing this and then read Lisa Leonard's blog where she writes answering a question - 

How do you stay so positive all the time? I don’t. I mean, yes, in general I am happy and thankful. I love my little family and although David has a severe disability, I’ve accepted that and I don’t dwell on it. I have down days, where I let myself be sad and cry. But I can’t live there. There is too much life to be lived. This is my life–I can either embrace it or complain about it. I choose to embrace it. Despite the pain, there is joy to be found.

Maybe I need to be listening to this - less complaining and more getting on with it - embracing life with its restrictions. Making right choices so that I can live the joyful life. Accepting and not dwelling there. Chronic illness is hard but other things are hard too. I still choose joy!