Today.......

“What day is it?"
It's today," squeaked Piglet.
My favorite day," said Pooh.”
― A.A. Milne


Today I have been thinking a lot about living in the moment and how important that is. It is so easy for me to only live the days when I am well and to waste the days when I have to rest, to think that they don't count. But today is what we have been given and today is what we need to make the most of each and every moment. So I am here in bed - thankful for today. Thankful for the sunshine out of my window,thankful for the thoughtfulness of my husband, for the quiet, warm bedroom and for my iPad (my window to the world)


I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.”
― Groucho Marx 

So much recently has reminded me that I can choose how I react to the circumstances I find myself in. It is so easy to fall into self-pity - why me, why has this happened? Soon it will be 5 years since I first became ill. 5 years since my life changed for ever. I am aware that more recently I have started to feel that when something goes wrong again - poor me! It 's not fair that that has happened - surely this is enough. I need to remind myself that God is in charge - I am in the process of being changed, it's slow and I am stubborn. But my job is to live today and seek forgiveness from Jesus for all that I 
have done wrong in the past and trust God for the future whatever that brings. 


“We spend precious hours fearing the inevitable. It would be wise to use that time adoring our families, cherishing our friends and living our lives.”
― Maya Angelou

How easy it is to allow fear to rule our days. I can assure you that I have't conquered fear. It still knocks on my door, especially in the quietness of the night. When I get aches and pains I wonder if this is the day that the cancer returns. But I am learning not to allow that fear to control anything. If I live in today and leave the future to God then fear doesn't reign. I am not going to spare time fearing -  I am going to cherish my families and friends and live in this moment.

This week - lunch with my 2 sisters, coffee with friends, flowers, Drs appointment, and reducing steroids ( started yesterday) and hopefully returning to Pilates. Each day lived.