Yesterday at church someone hugged me. Nothing strange in that you may say and there isn't - we often hug in church and I am a huggy person so I often hug people. But the most important thing about it was it came with no words and it was just what I needed. It told me that this person cared about what was happening to me but that no words were needed. It told me that I was loved and because I know this person I knew it also meant they were praying. As we wait to know what is going on in my body there aren't many words that people can say but that hug said it all. So often when people are going through hard battles we want to console, we want to tell them it will be ok, we want to make the hurt go away, we even at times want to make it easier for ourselves but actually sometimes there are no words. I think this is one of those times. Over the weekend I have thought so many thoughts. This is my strategy I cover all my bases ... If this happened then I would do this... and if that happened I would do that etc.... and at the end of all my thinking I reach a peaceful place of waiting which is where I am now. Just waiting to see what the future holds. I feel sorry that you all have to wait too - this isn't your journey and yet you are part of the waiting. But maybe for someone this process will help them to cope with their own journey in the future.
We were reminded on Sunday that - ' nothing can separate us from the love of God'. NOTHING! No disease, no fear, no pain, no doubt, no dark nights, no cancer can stop God loving me and having the best plan for my life. That is where I am held in the palm of his hand.
This week Paul is off to Germany and Ben is home from Reading Festival. I will have an x-Ray of my back tomorrow and possibly an oncology appointment on Friday, a dentists appointment on Thursday to finish off my root canal work (ugh) and in between times I will be helping Ben to sort out stuff for uni. I am hoping to plan in some nice things too to make up for all that hospitally stuff!
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