Struggling a bit to write this this evening. My visit to the hospital was adventurous. My blood results are showing that my kidneys may be beginning to struggle a bit. My consultant suggested that I needed to have more words with them! It is possible that the antibiotics may be affecting them but that is doubtful. They will watch the pattern and see if it is just a blip. My blood pressure is also going up so I have more tablets to take for that. The interesting (not sure that is quite the right word) thought is that my swollen arm is more likely to be caused by a blockage in my fistula. I am therefore having surgery on my arm in January to open up my fistula - hopefully. If they can't do that they will remove my fistula - I didn't ask how that would happen! I would then need another fistula made some where else - ho hum! I don't think they know whether there is also some lymphodema there as well. I suppose we shall see when the fistula is sorted. While at the clinic a gentleman was taken ill and the resus team arrived running along the corridor. There was a lot of activity followed by the gentleman saying - 'get me off the floor I have a bad back' . I don't think he understood how serious it had been. I was glad to be going home at the end of all that.

I am feeling disappointed to hear that my kidneys may be struggling but we shall see. God is in charge and we know he can do amazing things. In the meantime I will make the most of my days and enjoy having 7 days a week to plan. I will enjoy Christmas without dialysis this year knowing that maybe by next year I will be having dialysis again.

Today I had a lovely lunch at school. It was really wonderful to see everyone all together and to chat to some. I miss them all SO much and am very grateful that they are still part of my life. They do wonderful food too.