3 chicks

Mother's Day began with 1 child in bed and the other 2 elsewhere. By 1.30 I had all 3 of my chicks at home. Unbeknown to me Paul had arranged for Josh and Debs to join us for lunch and Chloe and Ed arrived for pudding ( on their way back from Cornwall). It was the best Mother's Day gift I could ask for, to have all my chicks together. I love having them all home at the same time and to hear them laughing and joking together. It is wonderful to have children who enjoy each other's company as well as ours. I wish I could bottle the feeling it gives me to hear them laughing together and open the bottle on hard days. Thankfully I can store those memories in my minds eye and relive them in the darkest of nights. 
Unfortuntley last night was one of those nights. I am not at all sure why but my back became unbearable painful during the evening and the painkillers I can take didn't touch the pain so I spent the night in agony. Unlike other times I was unable to find a comfortable position and became very moany. Thankfully it is slightly better this morning and the painkillers are now helping. It would be good to know what is causing this, as my mind goes to all sorts of places when I am in pain. It is very hard to control your thoughts when you are in pain and trusting becomes a struggle. This week I am going to look for some bible verses to write out to use in those tough times. Tomorrow's x-Ray and blood tests should help, hopefully to reassure and to put my mind at ease.  I now also have a rheumatology appointment in 2 weeks so I am sure Dr Mc will have a view on this! 
So this week will not be as I had planned. I have cancelled everything and will just concentrate on getting better. I have some gentle back exercises to do when I am able and I will hopefully get to do some crafting and home stuff. It looks like it might be sunny so sitting in the garden will be lovely.  As always I have a stack of books waiting to be read. More lessons on patience beckons! I feel it most for Paul and Ben who have to live with all of this.  They constantly demonstrate their love in their patient willingness to care for me.  I am bored with this but they must be even more so.