Here it is decision day. I so hope that today we decide that tomorrow will be my last chemo day. I have had enough! I am exhausted from a year of treatment and I want my life back even with its new normal. I want to be a mummy again and look after my house, cook our meals and tidy. I am not asking for much! I don't want my thoughts to keep turning to illness and death - ENOUGH. I think I have been quite patient but now...............

Sorry that was a bit of a moan. I am weary of this journey. I will let you know later the outcome.

Today I am going to look for shoes for the wedding. Hopefully I will find a perfect pair.