Friday, 10 June 2011

I have been listening to this song.

We pray for blessings

We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near

What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

by Laura Story

We can't explain why we have to suffer but I do think that it is in the darkest days we learn the most. In the dark reaches of the nights that is when we see God and feel him holding our hands. This journey would not be my choice I would so much prefer to be going along to work, doing my own shopping, ironing, cleaning, driving myself everywhere. But this is the journey he has given me and I am learning to be content in the here and now - understanding that maybe his blessings come through raindrops. The writer of this song describes how she and her husband have been coping with his brain tumour and have learnt that maybe 'God doesn't give us what we want but what we need' Hard to fathom but just maybe that is what it is all about.

I am wading my way through this chemo, knowing that the end is in sight. I am 9 days post chemo and the tiredness is still huge. My fingers are struggling to type this morning as I can't feel the keys. My body feels worn out and very battered but the end is in sight. Hopefully soon I will turning the corner and beginning to feel better.

In 4 weeks time I will be going for dialysis before going to Brighton for Josh and Debz wedding. It is coming so quickly now. I can't wait. Josh is coming home today for the weekend. I guess this will be our last time of having him home as an unmarried man. When he comes home next it will be with his bride as he starts a new family. Wow! How grown up am I !! I am so proud of the man he has become.

Today is Chloe's 22nd birthday. She is off camping with Ed. Hopefully they aren't having too much rain. She has taken our old camping stove - great that it is getting more use after sitting in our shed for ages.

It is also Joy's birthday - we do well in our family at sharing birthdays.

Today - ladies who lunch and then ladies who chat! Its been a busy week for many of the group.


1 comment:

  1. THANK YOU for all your thoughts today Anne. Have a special weekend. x x

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