So here we are - last day of chemo - hopefully ever! It feels very strange to be at this point. I still have to have the chemo and the next few weeks of yucky side effects but then it is done - over. Then I start the scary part of cancer - on my own! People liken it to coming home from hospital with your new born - on your own. There won't be weekly blood tests and appointments with Drs. In fact I won't now see the oncologist for 6 weeks. I begin this part of the journey after treatment. With breast cancer you are now never considered cured. It is something I will live with for the rest of my life. I will have to learn to live with niggles always causing concern and fear that it has returned but this will be part of my new normal. Dr C warned me that it takes a year to 18 months to recover from chemo but thats OK I have the rest of my life to recover. I plan to continue with my blog for at least the next 6 weeks - until my appointment which will be the week after Josh's wedding. Then we shall see. I am hoping to have a party in September to celebrate - life! I hope you will all come.

Thank you again for all your thoughts, prayers, texts and messages. I have felt surrounded by your love.

This verse has been on my heart -

'For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future' Jer 29 v11.

I am in the hands of the Father who has plans for me and for my family. He knows the number of my days and he is in charge of them. I trust him.

Yesterdays show shopping went well. I have a beaustiful pair of shoes and a little handbag in just the right colour. The handbag was the tricky part. I had a lovely time shopping with D. Dialysis went well and I finished watching Avitar which was very beautiful although I could have done with out all the fighting. Needling went well with a new nurse. At last I feel like we are getting there.

Today we might get to see Josh who is coming home with a van to pick up stuff for his new flat which Debz moves into today. What fun for them to begin building there first home together.

I am just waiting for the phone call to say my chemo has arrived.

We have had money taken out of our account for olympic tickets - looks like it might be the rowing tickets. We shall see! It will be lovely to go and see rowing but I did so want to go to the stadium. Oh well at least we can watch it on the television.