Morning full of thoughts today. Don't even know where to start! Some days are like that now when my mind is trying to put into perspective all that has happened in the last year. So much I didn't deal with when it happened - just put it to the back of my mind to be dealt with later! Well the later is here! The change to my life is huge - it will never be the same again. Sometimes I wish i wasn't a thinker - it would be so much easier to just live! I am not sad, just trying to assimilate the changes - trying to decide what life will look like now - with the new normal. Trying to cope with all the thoughts which flood my mind, the fear of aches and pains which could mean something else is going on or just the new normal, the excitement that I do have a future which could stretch to years. It is hard to make decisions not knowing what the future holds - although I am glad that I don't know! What a lot to think!!! Maybe I will stop thinking an just get on with my day. More procrastinating!

Yesterdays dialysis was fine - lovely to spend time with Kit. we had so much to chat about.

Today - Chloe home, she didn't quite make it yesterday! Dr's appointment, ladies who lunch and bible study. Ben's only got 3 exams left. Physics today and then 2 germans a week apart. He has coped well, kept calm and not got anxious. I will be glad when they are done. He then has the summer ahead of him - hurrah!