I can’t quite believe this is it. My last day of daily posting. It will be strange not to be posting every day and to know that you all know what I am getting up to. Thank you so much for sticking with me through thick and thin. I am so grateful for all your thoughts, prayers, cards, flowers, cakes, messages, meals, presents, visits ,lifts, emails etc….. You have all helped make a very difficult year so much easier. I will miss your presence in my life. But this is my step into the future and into a more normal life. I intend to continue to blog on a Saturday for now – just to keep in touch! Over 28,000 times people have logged into my site to see how I am – that is truly amazing that people are interested in my little life. I hope that I have encouraged you to see that illness doesn’t have to mean disaster and that you can find joy in each day. That maybe in dark days you too can reach out for a hand to hold and find that He is faithful.

I began with this passage

Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

²⁹ He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

³⁰ Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

³¹ but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40

It has been the passage I have clung to and at times I have soared and had strength even when I have thought strength wasn’t possible. I still have moments of fear and sadness that this has happened to me but I do trust that it is part of a bigger plan that one day I will understand. Please know that my testimony is that our Father God is with us in the darkest of days. He holds our hands and his promises are true. He will never leave us

I am so glad we don’t know our futures – how scary that would be. I am learning to be content with this day and all it holds. To find joy and laughter with my friends and family and to be thankful for all things.

I wouldn’t have chosen this journey but I am so grateful for all I have learnt along the way. I don’t know where this journey leads but I trust that all things are in the hands of the Father who loves us.

There is so much I wished I had said and I wish I could let each of you know how valuable your support has been. It feels a bit scary to be walking without you each day holding my hands.

I will post again this evening to let you know how my 6-week check (at 7 weeks) goes and then that will be that. I am praying that there are no hidden secrets to be told.