So I have started my new life. It seems strange to be doing it without you. Thank you for all your messages and emails etc... telling me that you are missing me. I really appreciate that you have been making this journey with me.

This week has included very normal things - ironing, tidying, washing ( I have nearly found the bottom of Chloe's washing), cooking, shopping, hoovering. All in little doses but at least i am doing them.

I have also been out to coffee and to the end of term BBQ which was really lovely. I can't tell you how much I miss you all. Thank you very much for the token for M&S - how well you know me. Another chance to shop!

I have had some broken nights this week - feeling anxious about the bone scan and really praying that it will be OK. I so want some time to be well. I am reading a book about sin and how anxiety, worry and frustrations are all sins as they all show we aren't trusting God. It is hard when you have had bad things happen to trust that no more will come your way or if they do that they are part of God's plan for your life. I continue to work on these things - maybe it is my lifes work!!!!!

In dialysis this week I have managed both needles and I am learning how to attach myself and programme the machine. It is good to be in control but to have the nurses there for back up.

My boy is back from his honeymoon and learning about married life. They both sound very happy. I am really looking forward to going to see them in a few weeks.

This week holds church, shopping, renal consultants visit, more tidying, washing, and of course dialysis. I am also hoping to pop into the holiday club our church is running for about 250 children. I feel sad not to be part of it. Although I have lent our lego etc... do you think that counts? I am so glad that the weather has cheered up for it.

I hope you all have great plans for your week. See you next Saturday.