It is really good that I now don't think about being ill all the time. Sometimes a day will have gone by and it hasn't crossed my mind. Yesterday I drove past the hospital and didn't think about it at all - too busy thinking of the plans I had for shopping. But when I was catching up on a breast cancer forum, I am part of, I had a reality check. One of the lovely supportive girls there, who was coming up to her 5 year check up, was taken into hospital suddenly and a week later she died. It was so sudden she had only be writing the week before about being cancer free for 5 years and wham she is gone. It can be such a cruel disease. It is a reminder to make each day count and to take nothing forgranted. I am tightening my hold on the Fathers hand - knowing all things are in his hands.