Today I should be packing for our holiday in the Lake District. Ho hum! I was looking forward to spending time with all the family and partners. But it was not to be. Holidays in the future will take a lot of organising as you can have dialysis in other parts of the country (or world) but they have to have spaces for you or you have to pay to go to special holiday dialysis centres. At the moment I need the security of a centre that I know. So we stay home.

Today I am looking forward to time spent with my patchwork friend and a trip to Holme Grange, all being well. I am enjoying going out more although I am still limited by my low haemoglobin which means I can't walk very far.

Dialysis went well again yesterday and I was joined by 'baby girl' a friend from school and Chloe. We chatted for ages and really enjoyed hearing all about her exploits in Marrakesh.

The book (Plan B by Pete Wilson) I am reading has challenged me on so many levels. In particular he challenges the idea that Christians often say that ' God never gives you more than you can handle' He says this is wrong. He uses Paul's thorn in the flesh as an example. But he says in those hard to handle Plan Bs we have the choice to abandon God or worship him in the midst of Plan B. I choose the later in my Plan B. 'It's amazing the bright light God allows our lives to become when we give him all we have in the midst of the darkness'. (pg120 Plan B byPete Wilson) I think this is proving true in our lives at the moment.

Just enough light for this step I am on.