OK so we have a plan. Today will be my last chemo for now. On Monday I will have an ultrasound(hopefully) and on Tuesday I will see the oncologist and surgeon together. The new plan is to have the 6th chemo today and then to have surgery in the next 6 weeks. The drug that I might have had will take quite a while to organise as the funding is complicated. We will still apply for it so that if necessary I can have it after I have had surgery and radiotherapy. This means by Christmas I will have had chemo and surgery and depending on healing I may have started radiotherapy. Yippee! I was very relieved yesterday to know that the chemo will be finished after today. The dietician will be pleased too as he was beginning to discuss the need for me to be tube fed if I continue to loose weight - yucky!!!

I also saw the renal consultant who is very pleased with how the dialysis is going. We discussed my blood pressure and she took it in my arm and leg and it showed a huge difference in measurements. The reassuring thing about that is that my arm measurement shows that my blood pressure is in a normal range. She checked my fistula and decided that we may be able to start using it next week after an ultrasound to check its position. I also asked about the possibility of my kidneys recovering. She feels that as I have been on dialysis for nearly 5 months now the chance of recovery is very unlikely. I think it would take a miracle now. So after a few tears and a few deep breaths we get on with life in its new form trusting that God is in charge.

Thank you for your prayers and your emails, texts etc.... I couldn't manage without my wonderful backing team.