We have a plan - hurrah it doesn't involve more chemo! I will be having surgery on 18th November - a mastectomy and node removal. I should be in for 1 or 2 nights all being well. I am feeling fine about it. It helps that I know what it will look like and I have been resigned to it happening from the beginning. Paul is concerned I may need to learn how to walk again as I will be lopsided!!! We continue to laugh through most things.

It was a long day yesterday beginning at 9.00 with ultrasound followed by mammogram. Then an hour and half wait in clinic to be seen by a very rushed surgeon. No time to discuss things just this is what we will do and when. A lovely chat and hug with my breast care nurse who is leaving and meeting with new one. An appointment made to discuss all things related to mastectomies. Then a visit to pre-op right at the other end of the hospital who were very busy so I made an appointment for Thursday. Paul certainly didn't need a visit to the gym after he had pushed me from one end of the hospital and back twice, up numerous slopes. We then arrived slightly late to dialysis where they were very busy but ready for me. They had decided I needed a transfusion straight away. So the fistula couldn't be used. So blood started and dialysis begun. The fistula nurse then came and scanned my arm with the hope we could use it on Thursday. Unfortunately the vein splits after the fistula and is not ideal for use. So we now need another more detailed ultrasound and possibly another little op to tie off the vein and then time for it to grow - ho hum! It is never straightforward it seems. Thankfully I continue to take each day as it comes and can only be concerned with this day. Then they were late starting my third bag of blood so I had to have an extra 20 minutes of dialysis. We eventually arrived home at 6. I was very grateful for Paul's company during the morning and my friend D during the afternoon. It is a wonderful joy to spend Tuesdays with her.

So today a quiet day with a GP visit this afternoon to update tablets and sick notes.Looking forward to the weekend and Chloe home and then half term with my youngest boy. Glad to have more hb.