Over the last few days I have been thinking a lot about what Jesus did on the cross - he did away with the sting of death, he showed us victory over death, that death no longer has power over us. But it still frightens us or me. I love my life here and I don't want to leave it. But the amazing thing is that God has gone before us and prepared a place for us which will be better than anything we have here. Its just that we can't imagine that. Death still feels so final but the bible promises so much more. I am learning to love my life but to know that God is preparing a place for me in heaven where there will be no more tears, no more pain, no more dialysis!!!! I am hoping however that it won't be ready for me too soon!

Yesterdays dialysis was yuck again - the nurses are thinking that it is the combination of hot weather, chemo and dialysis mixed together which means that I drop my blood pressure. It is becoming a regular occurrence and is quite horrible. I would like it to stop! Needling wasn't too successful either so we used 1 needle 1 line. Mmmmmmm I would really like this to be sorted.

Today - I am going to have a personal shopper in John Lewis and I am hoping to find something to wear for Josh and Debz wedding. I am hoping to have enough energy to really enjoy it. Chloe is coming with me and we are both looking forward to it.

My lovely husband has just made me pancakes to start my day - yummy.