Off to dialysis again today. Hoping all goes smoothly. Also hoping to see consultant to decide on the plan. I feel a bit in limbo until I have a plan.

I had a lovely non-dialysis day yesterday. I had coffee with a friend. It was lovely catching up with her news. She is my battling buddy. It is so helpful to have a friend also going through similar things. In the evening Chloe and I watched a film together which was good fun.

Everything feels a bit distant at the moment. I am aware that God is holding my hand and we walk this road together but without a plan I don't know where the road is leading. Mostly I continue to face each day as it comes but every now and then I glimpse towards the future - hoping there is a future. It is a real taste of trust. Thankfully mostly I live in the day. Looking for joy (the emotion not my sister) in each day! I miss my life both school and home and can't wait to be well enough to feel like I can take part in life again. I enjoy the glimpses that you all give me of life outside of our illness bubble. Hopefully as dialysis settles down and I reduce some of my tablets I will be able to do more.

All being well I will post a plan this evening after dialysis.