Wednesday, 23 January 2013

A thread of thankfulness

Nothing is quite right - I am sure you know that feeling. Lots of little niggles, health wise, home wise, sleep wise etc..... I am struggling to find a pattern for my days. I miss the structure of working and need to find a way of making a new structure which takes self-discipline something I am not very good at. When you only have a short amount of available time you fit in what urgently needs to get done. When you can choose what you do when and structure your own days - mmmmm that's when I come unstuck. Life is full of lovely things to do and some not so lovely things and I need a bit of both! When I was so poorly and could only do one thing a day I longed for the days when I could pack my day. I am now nearer to that but still have to reserve energy for certain activities but I feel guilty when I haven't achieved all that I want to achieve. I suppose this is the part of the journey where I am trudging along! Learning to live in the new normal and accepting it for what it is and not longing for more. Thankfulness remains my byword and is the thread winding through my days. Maybe at times it's not quite as obvious as it was but it's still there.


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